Our God Makes No Mistakes

Hope everyone's Monday got off to a good start. I had a rough morning this morning, but my afternoon and evening have been good. I had to go back to my OB for my 6 week appointment. I dreaded going this morning. Usually when I go, I have to wait awhile and there is a room full of pregnant women. Today God was looking out for me. I only had to wait in the waiting room for about 5 minutes and there was only 1 pregnant lady. It was a hurdle to cross, but I did it. This week is a busy week for Ellis and I. We are starting grief counseling on Wednesday and on Thursday we are going to meet with Gavin's doctor. We are hoping to get a diagnosis and some other information from her. Please pray for us this week as we are hoping to get answers regarding Gavin's condition and we are also hoping to find out if this condition is something that would happen again in future pregnancies. One of Gavin's primary nurses and one of my work friends posted a poem on my facebook wall that I would like to share:

You are who you are for a reason.

You're part of an intricate plan.

your a precious and perfect unique design,

Called Gods special woman or man.

You look like you look for a reason.

Our God made no mistake.

He knit you together within the womb,

Your just what he wanted to make.

The parents you had were the ones he chose,

and no matter how you may feel,

they were custom designed with Gods plan in mind,

and they bear the masters seal.

No, that trauma you faced was not easy.

and God wept that it hurt you so:

But it was allowed to shape your heart

So that into his likeness you'd grow.

You are who you are for a reason,

You've been formed by the Masters rod.

You are who you are, beloved,

Because there is a God!

This poem just reminds me of how great our God is and that He makes NO mistakes. It also reminds me that God chose Ellis and I to be blessed with Gavin. I am not sure why God chose us, but I know there is a purpose and I plan to do great things because of what I have been through and what I've learned from Gavin. It is amazing to me how even after he's gone, I still feel like I learn something new from his short time here almost everyday. Over the weekend the weather was beautiful here. I kept thinking about Gavin and how he has beautiful days everyday. Can you imagine having perfect and beautiful days every single day? He is a lucky guy. He is perfect and healed now. He is with the only One who could care for him better than Ellis and I. We still miss him so much and it's hard to believe that yesterday was one month since my sweet Gavin passed away. Of course it was a hard day, but it is so comforting in knowing that as Christians we don't have to say "goodbye", we get to say "see you later". I know one day I will see my sweet Gavin again. This brings comfort to me, as I continue to work through my feelings and emotions of losing him. Bundle up and stay warm. I know there is bad weather all over the country.

Love to all,

Melissa